Changing my life but not hurting others.

I have found that on this journey, making changes in my life has been difficult. I am lucky enough to have a friend/trainer who is very educated in fitness and nutrition. She is always imparting her wisdom on me and allowing me to do with it what I will.

So currently a bunch of people I know are training for a body building show and I have been surrounded by their nutrition talk. I have heard a lot of negative things about dairy and I asked my trainer and she gave her thoughts on it. I decided to try not having it for two weeks. I am not sure if that choice is right for me but I am seeing how my body feels.

During this girl weekend I was questioned about that and the fact that I try to eat minimal gluten by my best friend . My best friend is naturally very thin and has been feeling down lately because she isn't living a healthy life. She has started to ask me why I eat certain things and other questions about my lifestyle. She just got overwhelmed and I finally turned to her and said. "no one is making you have to live like this, but I am trying to find out what makes me feel good. You have to want to be healthy badly enough. Start with a few changes." I finding that sharing my life doesn't always motivate those that don't really want to change.

I hate feeling like I am making her feel bad by trying to find my nutritional balance. It makes me feel like I am being an unmotivating person. I want to answer her questions honestly. I just didn't like that feeling yesterday.

I know right now that this journey is about me and I can't feel bad for passing on goldfish crackers and pizza because it is making her insecure. At the same time, I need to still feel like a good best friend at the end of the day.