Wednesday, March 10, 2010
Waaay too much rest going on. It's only day 3 of my forced week of rest. Even though I'm still supposed to do cardio, going to the gym and NOT doing everything else is just... dull.
To make it worse, the eye candy level at the gym is dwindling. There is like nothing for me to look at while I'm doing my cardio. I know the area I live in is seriously lacking in hotties, but even the one piece of eye candy I saw there goes maaaaybe once a week, if that.
What exactly am I supposed to do to stay sane? Cardio doesn't clear my mind the way weights do. There's nothing to count, nothing to concentrate on, and I'm not supposed to strain my body by doing the harder stuff.
My trainer has turned me into a gym rat. Normally that's fantastic, but when I'm forced to rest like this, it gets really dull. I'm not pushing myself. I'm just supposed to maintain for this week.
I suppose it's a good thing I'm honest with my trainer about my physical state, since apparently I need the rest. But this is just the worst time for it. Working out balances my mood like nothing else I've tried. Meditation isn't my thing, and the only other thing that balances me requires a partner, which I don't have.
Unfortunately I'm in one of my depressed episodes. At least when I work out, I'm too busy to focus on the idiotic thoughts that accompany these episodes. I live alone, which is generally fantastic, but it also means there's nothing else to distract me. I have no ideas to play with and write about. Working out is one of the ways I escape my own head.
Damn my honesty. I'm BORED!