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Tuesday, March 09, 2010

Big sigh of relief..., we got an unemployment check for my husband yesterday, so that helps. I am still waiting to hear about that job I interviewed for last week, but was told I would hear something soon. The person who does the hiring was on sick leave last week. Either way, we are back to being able to pay for most of the bills now. I still want this other job. I have wanted this job all year, but was afraid to apply, and then I found the courage... and a few days later my husband lost his job.

So, yesterday I started another job. It will be in the evenings and I was actually hired by a spark friend. The job requires some driving, and that has been a little out of my comfort zone, but that's good. I need that. I have avoided driving the freeway my whole life. I have driven on the freeway a few times while I was with other drivers guiding me, but I have always been afraid of getting lost. I drive on PCH, but I am not sure that counts because there are no interchanges or off ramps. So, I drove on the freeway a good 20 miles there and again back all by myself. I changed freeways, and I even survived getting a little lost. Now, I did have a Tom Tom (which actually confused me a little "stay on the left lane, now exit right"... "exit, I am in the left lane"), but still this is a huge step for me. It amazes me how much I have been held back by irrational fears.

Okay, so I am not 300 pounds anymore, and I can drive freeways. Those things feel huge to me. I can't tell you how much this opens up in my life. I only applied to one grad school program because the other colleges required freeway driving... although I rationalized it that I didn't have the time to drive. Change can be good. Big sigh of relief. My husband even has a job interview today for position that he wants. Say a prayer that it goes well.
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    Yay, Jeannie! Sounds like goodness all around. I can't wait to hear about the job!
    Love you!
    4012 days ago
    (wow. that is a HUGE, HUGE, HUGE relief. ::hugs::)
    4012 days ago
    Good job.

    I don't love driving fast lane kinda stuff, never have, have never been a speed demon.

    So I know how huge it is to get on the highway and go. One thing I found that helped with my fears (dunno if it's feasible for you) was getting on the road at odd hours. I'm a natural super-early bird so I can quite literally get on the road at 6 AM. This is a problem when it's very cold out as there can be hard to see ice, but otherwise it's okay. And it will be even better in perhaps a month after Daylight Savings Time starts, and then it's even okay for a few months after DST ends. You see the most interesting things (deer, for example) and there's very little traffic.

    Coming home (because I was super-early, I would come home at about 3 or 4 PM most days), I've seen good stuff, too. Off Route 128, I spent an entire Summer watching a pair of Canadian Geese raise their chicks. Those lil suckers went from acid green fluff balls to being indistinguishable from their parents in size and coloration. Amazing and I never would have seen it otherwise. They lived in a little culvert off my exit ramp, where there was a small water source. :)
    4012 days ago
    I'm just really really relieved to hear that he got the UI. I'm glad that you have some of your bills settled. I always want the best for you and your family.

    HUGS again!
    4015 days ago
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    I will keep my fingers cross for your hubby hope he gets the job! Good luck!!!
    4015 days ago
    Wow, Jeannie!! There are so many wonderful possibilities out there for you!!
    HUGS and hugs! I'm so happy for ya!
    4015 days ago
    Well done! Scary steps outside our comfort zones always teach us more about ourselves. They are so hard to do. From where I'm sitting, you've been handling all this major upheaval so well! So glad there is a little light in your families dark tunnel!
    4015 days ago
    You rock.

    Just keep it up, and who KNOWS where you'll end up?!

    4015 days ago
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