I felt a Spark today
Tuesday, February 09, 2010
Dearest Spark friends,
Today I felt a Spark. I had a "woo hoo" moment. Now, bear with me while I give you some background......
I started my healthy life journey back in January 2009. My husband and I decided that enough was enough. I weighed 206 lbs on January 1, 2009 and was horrified about having such a long journey in front of me. (My Spark tracker shows my weight since joining Spark) We were always tired, both overweight (obese according to BMI calculators), inactive and setting a terrible example for our children. I never want either of my children to have to relearn healthy habits later in life or have to worry about losing weight. My 12 year old son has had digestive issues since infancy and the problem is only controlled through proper nutrition. So as I family we talked and agreed that things were going to change. My husband, who is a chef, and cooks all of the meals (I know ladies, LUCKY ME!) started preparing healthier options. We started walking after dinner as a family, taking bike rides on the weekend, etc. All seemed well. But as the summer of 2009 approached I wasn't close to my goal weight. We would go to the beach almost every weekend and I would cover up, never play in the sand or water with my kids. I thought "hell, at least I'm in a bathing suit" but the truth was I was letting my weight stop me from my favorite thing in life...playing with my kids. I cried myself to sleep often wondering why I couldn't lose the extra weight, and then wondering why I was crying and not doing something about it.
Then I found Spark. I haven't been terribly successful as far as pounds lost. I stayed in the 170's for what felt like forever. I was STUCK. But I wasn't really stuck, I needed to have patience, make good eating choices most of the time and figure out how my lifestyle was going to be sustainable. I started reaching out to other members, instead of looking at successful Sparkers pages and wondering how they did it I started asking them. You know what I found? Open people, proud of their success, willing to share their knowledge and their support.
So, to the title of my blog, I felt a Spark today. I had a terrible day at work, a sick husband at home, two children in need of school lunches, and homework checks, etc. While I struggled in the kitchen to make dinner for the family (not an easy task for me) I had one thought racing through my head...I want to go get on the elliptical now!! So after eating dinner, I asked the kids to give my some "me time" and I rushed down to my favorite piece of exercise equipment, my elliptical. As a started out all I felt was relief, like I was in my space, doing my thing, and enjoying it! 300 calories burned later I felt ready to take on the world. Me? Enjoying exercise? No way! Yes way...I feel a Spark when I sweat, I think of all of those on this site who have lent me their ear, their knowledge, their support. I know that as long as I keep doing all the things I have learned from all of you the weight WILL come off. And I'll enjoy the journey this time...not just the finish line. :)