Done, I give, The towel has been tossed, the white flag is waving.
Tuesday, January 26, 2010
Gives. I give. This is it world, I bow down before you crushed and done and I just give. I still haven't gotten back in my Chem class (in case I didn't mention this I got removed from my Chem class because enrolling me was a "mistake, past enrollment limits".) My dad "tried" to commit suicide tonight. I'm not sure if it was a serious attempt or not since he called a friend and then called my mom to tell her where the keys to the truck were. Then he hit my mother. SO most of the sympathy and compassion I have for him has kind of disappeared. I know he had a stroke and so his brain isn't working right, his mom died, and he's been depressed, but really? Really? SO anyways I'm stressed and tired and something new and bad has happened every day for the past week. Literally a week. I was called a week ago to go to the hospital for my grandma. I think I'm about ready to just call it a year and climb in my bed and wait for 2011. Also, with all this stress I succumbed to food. Went to McDonalds, bought Mint Oreos that I haven't opened yet, but will. And you know what, I don't care! I don't. If food will make me feel even remotely better right now then I'll take it, it's better than the alternative fix. I know food isn't going to fix everything and I know the weight gain won't be nice, but right now I need something and food is something.