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Venting

Sunday, January 24, 2010

I'm so tired of being judged. I'm judged on how I look. I'm judged on what I do. I'm judged on what I think. I'm tired of it. I'm tired of being given advice that I don't want. My life isn't others lives and they don't know what I'm feeling right now. Sorry I need to vent.

I think I'm ready to take some time off of college. If that means never going back, it means never going back, if I decided to go back soon, then I do. I'm just ready to take some time off. All these people who didn't go to college are trying to tell em it's going to be the biggest mistake ever. A lot of people who went to college are telling me that it isn't the worst decision I could make. Nick's mother is going to be PISSED if I quit. I'm just ready to do what is right for ME. If I'm getting so depressed I'm feeling how I used to before I contemplated suicide I think it's time to contemplate a change now before it gets that bad.

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  • KIYOSHI04
    im sorry that you feel judged. you do have to do what is right for you. this is your life.

    as for school...... i couldnt take it anymore and stopped going. but you can always go back. there is no sense in making yourself miserable doing something you dont like--it will just make all aspects of your life miserable.
    3956 days ago
  • SUNBERRY76
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    3957 days ago
  • SHERWOODCYCLER
    I feel your pain. And wish that you can find some small spark of hope and something to believe in. You are on a difficult journey right now. But I encourage you to believe in yourself--you are worth it. Truly!! If you need someone to talk to in person, please reach out to those around you. We Sparkers will keep you in our thoughts.


    3957 days ago
  • LJCANNON
    SparkPeople is one place where you are SAFE. You can vent, rant, rave, and celebrate without ever feeling judged or ridiculed. You will find someone to listen and--if you want it--to offer advice.
    emoticon Good Luck with whatever decision you make. Just remember to stay physically active. It will help with the depression, and you can think better when your muscles are moving.
    emoticon OK, I'm getting down off my soapbox now.
    3957 days ago
  • TORNADO40
    I am a college professor and I say that if you need time off then you should take time off. Get a job and work on the things in your life that you need to work on. At some point down the line you may decide that you are ready to go back, but don't go back until you are ready. You may find a job that you love and never want to go back. You are young and have plenty of time to make these decisions. Good luck to you.
    3958 days ago
  • PRETTYPITHY
    Do what's best for you. College is supposed to be a fun time of growth. If it feels like the opposite, it may be time to take a break. I hope you feel better soon. emoticon emoticon
    3958 days ago
  • DISNEYSMOM
    You are under a lot of stress right now with everything that's going on in your life. I hope that you have someone that you can talk things through with to support you, either a counselor or a close friend. Deciding whether or not to drop out or take time off school is difficult, I have been there so I understand. I know that you will make the best decision for you right now. If you don't have someone to talk to, please feel free to email or msg me and I will be more than happy to lend an ear.
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    ~Michelle
    3958 days ago
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