C25k Week 1 Day 1 Round 2

I decided to redo Week 1 and up the speed that I ran instead of moving on to Week 2. It didn't work. I couldn't do it, which is horrible. I feel so disappointed in my ability to run. When I ran the first week, I ran at 4 mph. Yes, only 4 mph. Supposedly when I walk with Leslie I am walking that fast. I didn't think I would ever be fast, but I should be able to run a minute at 5 mph. And I did actually run 1 minute, I even ran another minute, but the third one left me reeling and I had to give up running 10 seconds too early. I still wasn't recovered enough during the next cycle and decided to just walk through the remainder of my time. I am not giving up on my goal of being able to do a 5k before the end of the year, but I am wondering if I should

a) not worry about speed and just proceed on to week 2,
b) continue working on upping my speed for as long as it takes, or
c) put the whole thing on hold until I lose ten or twenty more pounds.

I just don't know at this moment in time.

The boys slept fairly well last night. L made it through the night and S almost did so that was nice. We didn't get too much outside play time today because of storms.

I watched the biggest loser on Primetime VOD and was a little upset. I know those people are trainers, but I'm still inclined to believe that there are people who have bodies that work outside the norm. I know that I am not working nearly as hard as those people, but I was dismayed by the attitude towards the red team woman. I tend to lose the same way - quite a bit right away and then the next few weeks I'm lucky if I lose a pound, and then it starts to pick up a little, not a lot. And heck if I worked out extremely hard, I would want to eat a cheeseburger as it didn't seem to make any difference what I do. Of course, this is the only episode I have watched and I will probably go back and watch the previous ones. There may be something there that I haven't seen that will make me feel differently. The show is interesting, but it doesn't inspire me as much as it seems to a lot of other people. I think if I was somewhere were I only had to worry about losing weight, I could lose it a little easier. I don't think it would work that easy in the real world.

There was more I was going to write, but I can't think of what it was so I guess I won't worry about it.