starting over 1/13/10
Wednesday, January 13, 2010
I was standing in line at the concession stand at the movies when I looked at people all around me, most of them skinny and fit. I felt aloof because of how I was feeling in the inside and my reflection towards the outside world. I let myself go. Inside I was crying for help and sobbing with pain. I had almost lost 24 pounds and more if I wasn't so fustrated and down. We moved to Washington State and that is where I slowly gained all the weight back. I got depressed and gloomy due to being unemployed and restarting a new life with no one I knew except our friends that are on the other side of washington. I missed the sun. I loved it there because of the nature and how it was so beautiful but I missed the sun.
We made a u-turn and moved back home. Here I am now trying to put the puzzles of my life together. It took a lot out of me to restart this but here I am. I hope I stay focused. I need to lose weight for myself and if I want to get pregnant. I have been wanting kids for eight years but until I help myself, how can I possible help others? Just a thought. I hope this will be a great journey and I miss being slim a little. Here we go.. tune in as I re-continue this journey...lots of prayers...and lots of sparkpeople...
P.s. to my sparkepeople friends that continue to inspire me ... sorry I haven't been in touch..miss you all and happy holidays... your in my thoughts...hoping you will cheer me on this journey called "life" :)