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Tuesday, November 10, 2009

I first and foremost want to aplogize to my spark friends from Binghamton and Ithaca. I should have been there Sunday and could not get myself out of the depression. It is no excuse. Just an explanation. I thought I could handle the anniversary alot better than I did. It through me through a big loop. I don't think I have really stopped crying for too long yet. This is the worst month for me. the anniversary of my son's death is the 21st and I hope that I can get through that better than this past weekend. The pain inside is so hard to describe. I appreciate everyone's great words and I do read them over and over. I tell myself that I can't change the past and need to work on the future but sometimes things get in the way. Please bear with me as I work on this.
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    Hey Linda...I lost my husband to addiction and then divorce. It's not the same, but there is still a treamendous saddness for what was and might have been.

    I remember forcing myself to get up and go to work...and my friends coming over and dragging me out of the house so that I didn't lie in bed...Time heals all wounds. Force your self to try something new.

    I wish you the very best.

    4032 days ago
    No apologies needed...!

    I'm so sorry you couldn't join us as I think it might have been a boost for you to spend some time out of the house with us enjoying the great outdoors...! Good medicine! :-)

    Anniversaries can be so tough...often making plans to keep oneself busy can be an antidote, along with some personally meaningful way to signify the date.

    When you can, step outside your isolation...you will benefit SO MUCH!

    Thx for updating us!

    4035 days ago
    No apology is necessary!

    Just take care of yourself, and if you feel up to it, we'll see you at the next one!

    Hang in there.
    4035 days ago
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