Like they say.. everything happens for a reason.
There's a reason why my mother went into the hospital in July
There's a reason why she had to stay there for almost two months. It readied us and prepared us for something I never thought I was strong enough to handle..
September 14, 2009, my Mother passed away..
She's been ill for many years with kidney failure and has been getting sicker and sicker this year.. it was inevitable..
Knowing that does not make it any easier..
My sister, cousin (taken in by my mom), and I pulled together, got everything done that needed to be done before, during, and after the services..
My cousin and I are home to care for my Dad, who has Alzheimer's. I do breakfast, dinners, and weekends. My cousin gets him on and off the bus to the Adult Day Care Center, helps with the cats, the "man" stuff around the house, watches my dad when I want to go out for the night. My sister helps with cooking dinners, and does all the shopping for us.
We've pulled together like never before.. the strength between us is amazingly strong... Everything happens for a reason...
On October 10, 2009 I picked myself back up and began my workouts again. Working out is my stress release, so why wasn't I doing what I needed most at the time?!
In the time of her illness and death, I unfortunately gained 15 pounds.
Round 1 with ChaLEAN Extreme, I started at 205 lbs in May 4th, 2009.
Thankfully I didn't wait until I LITERALLY had to start all over... I went back to 197lbs.
Did my mom have to pass to show me how amazingly strong I am?
That I can do it if I just put my mind to it?
That I can handle things better than I thought I could?
That I can take care of my dad, this house, work, exercise and still be able to smile everyday... is that all because she had to leave to show me that?
People probably think that losing 80 pounds in one month was the hardest and strongest thing I've done in my life.. I'd be quick to correct them now...
RIP Mommy 4/6/1944 - 9/14/2009