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Suddenly, the Going Has Gotten Tough

Monday, May 04, 2009

My alarm went off at 4:30 this morning, as it does every weekday morning, and as I do every morning, I hit the snooze button. When it went off again, I started thinking about getting up, and I realized that the right side of my body, from my hip down my let to my knee, were very sore. I lay there and tried to stretch it out a bit, but boy, it hurt, and I just felt yucky.. So, I hit the snooze button again, thinking okay, 7 more minutes and I'm getting up. But I felt no better or more awake 7 minutes later.. So finally, I just shut off the alarm and set #2, which is set for 5:30, the time I get up on work mornings that I don't work out. At 5:30, I dragged myself out of bed. I felt, and feel, crappy. My body is sore, I am STILL sleepy, I just want to go home and go to sleep. It certainly isn't because I didn't get enough sleep last night, because I went to bed at 9:15...

So, I'm sitting here realizing that I'm in a real rut. I haven't done ST in at least a month. I have been trying to up my daily cardio workouts to about 45 minutes, and no matter what I have tried, I have not done so with any consistency. My eating has not been good. I start the days out well usually, but I snack on this, grab a handful of that, eat more than I should of something else.

I have lost my groove entirely.

I wake up every morning and think okay, baby steps, Tina, just a little at a time. And I usually start well, but somewhere along the way, pretty much every day, I slip up, sometimes a little, sometimes a lot, but I'm not building on anything, I'm not inspired, I'm not "feeling it," and, this is the worst part: I can't seem to care. The scale has crept up a couple of pounds over the past couple of weeks.

One thing I'm noticing about me over the past few months is that I seem to be in a constant state of PMS, crampy, hungry, grumpy... When TOM finally arrives, it's better for a little while, but the PMS seems to be spreading out over longer and longer times. I'm due for my annual GYN appointment in June, and I'm wondering whether I should wait, or schedule an appointment sooner. I just don't know, but I don't like it and I hate feeling this way. Don't know what I think putting it out here is going to do, but I have now, so we'll see..

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  • KAT100
    4:30 am? You are my hero! My H is moving about around 5, and I try to shove a pillow over my head and hide in bed until 6. I should just get up and exercise, but exercise and me in the mornings don't suit.

    hey - you might want to read about PMDD. I just discovered it recently. There is actually a team here. I have not tried any of the medication options, but just being more aware has helped me. Diet impacts it too, and I noticed after being at my brother's all weekend and falling off the wagon, my emotions and stress were in high gear.
    4174 days ago
    Hey Tina, You'll get your groove back, I have no doubt!

    First of all, I just read on your blog that something deeply traumatizing happened within the last two weeks, and it sounds like you still need to process that. Giving yourself some space to mourn and to heal seems like a good idea.

    Other than that -- I know it might sound a little goofy for lack of energy problems, but have you tried cutting caffeine out entirely? When I'm feeling that way (including the intensifying of PMS) it's usually because I forgot to leave real coffee off the menu for a while and there is just too much of the stuff flying around in there.

    Starting your day with lots of water and a fruit-yogurt smoothie might be just the thing. Add some ginseng to help pick up your day. And leave coffee out for a bit.

    Oh yeah and shake up the workout routine ... that might help too.

    And see the doc as soon as they'll take you, no sense waiting! You'll have more information to go on once you've seen your gyn.

    Hope this helps
    4193 days ago

    Comment edited on: 5/7/2009 11:20:54 PM
    Tina, first of all I totally understand losing the groove entirely...ummm remember me the team leader who went awol, gone for months, regained 35 pounds...sometimes it happens. Don't stress over it, as mommies we know how to keep on keepin on!

    Perhaps it's time to really shake things up or perhaps you have too much on your plate and it's time to weed out some things that are draining you of your energy. It may not be a bad idea to double check with your doc regarding your symptoms, certainly sounds like it could be perimenopause, unfortunately our bodies do really crazy things when we reach a certain age.

    But regardless of what's causing this recent funk, know that we love you and are here for you. Give me a shout if you need anything!
    4195 days ago
    We are here for you Tina! You might just be exhausted and your body is telling you that. I used to get up at 4:30 am to work out (pre-nason days) and I bet you are tired. We will help you stay on the straight and narrow and I bet Lynn will come over and make sure you walk with her sometimes too.

    Hormones can play havoc with our bodies. I don't think mine ever adjusted after nursing all those months.

    Feel better! emoticon
    4197 days ago
    Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, OH!! You are sooooo NOT goin' down, T!! Huh-uh my ever inspirational!!

    What is THIS?!! I have delusions of GRANDEUR... you cease and desist your 'groove' and I want some answers with, what's with this?!!

    Tina's *L*U*C*K*Y* YUCKY Cardio BLAST and YOUR strength training, T... has been 'the rock' of my every day checking in with the team!

    I tried to up my walk to 2 miles and FAILED miserably. My eating been sooo lop-sided, T... and I quit lookin' at the scale when I saw a pound gained, b...u...t... Tina, Love?! I must remind you of something you've NEVER failed at....... lifting us up!! Oh, I'm not just sayin' that, T. I've got PROOF!

    The other night... hehe! actually, it was just last night to be precise. I accepted a challenge on that challenge game thread. I was challenged to make a comment on a team member's blog... well... since I'm not challenged by such a challenge emoticon I took off in search of going to someone I've never visited. I came across a new member and thought *perfect* and... lo & behold... who has made it to this new team member... not only to WELCOME them... but to LIFT THEM UP & GIVE THEM STRENGTH to take.......

    take what, T? THOSE....... baby steps, T!! It was YOU, my fantastic, FABULOUS, funny, FREAKY, faithful, FRIEND!!

    You said- past few months is a constant state of PMS, crampy, hungry, grumpy... right? Well, earlier, you said your eating has not been good- you start the days out well but I snack on this, grab a handful of that, eat more than I should of something... right?

    This CAN be 'balanced' by eating the NATURAL remedies-
    *Reduce sugar and salt intake. This is especially useful for bloating and swelling of the hands and feet, breast tenderness, and dizziness.
    *Increase foods rich in potassium, such as fish, beans, and broccoli.
    *Eat small, frequent meals to help stabilize blood sugar
    *Eliminate caffeine, which can aggravate anxiety, depression, and breast tenderness
    *Increase intake of fruits, vegetables, beans (noted a 2nd time) nuts, seeds, and fish (noted a 2nd time)
    *Avoid alcohol
    *Decrease intake of fatty foods and red meat

    You said that you haven't done ST in at least a month, right? This CAN be 'balanced' by exercise!

    Let me ask you, this, T... are you EVER in ANY relaxation mode? I mean, you're up at the crack of dawn, you hold a job, you taxi dear son to ALL his extra-curricular activities, you cook and clean for dear husband and dear son...... all of your *free* time is *doing* fun stuff for your family... baseball games... Disney... I don't mean, time to shop with your sister for your niece's Prom...

    I'm talkin' TINA-TINA-TINA-TINA-TINA!! Not sock-folding time either (or toilet bowl scrubbin' YUK) but just YOU relaxing AWAY from 'the men' in your life... the neighbors... the 'known' world that you know... is there any PERSONAL time for YOU to constructively be YOU (not wife- not mother- not worker) but TINA TIME!!

    TIME to EXPRESS your emotions... to GIVE (c'mon, T, you're GREAT at giving... this should be a piece-of-cake for you...) to GIVE priority to....... (are you ready for this, T?) to GIVE priority to....... ***Y*O*U*R******N*E*E*D*S*** and....... WHAT (this gets even better, T) to GIVE priority to....... ***Y*O*U*R******N*E*E*D*S*** and....... WHAT ***N*O*U*R*I*S*H*E*S******Y*O*U***

    Just asking....... is there ANY Tina Time- any....... what-so-ever? BECAUSE... having NONE increases the PMS symptoms of-
    Headache, Cramps, Nausea and vomiting, Food cravings, Abdominal bloating, Weight gain from water retention, Stomach upset, Swelling of the face, hands, ankles, Depressed mood, Crying spells, Anxiety, irritability, anger, Trouble falling asleep (insomnia) Appetite changes or food cravings, and Fatigue... for starters.

    *300 mg of calcium carbonate four times a day significantly reduces bloating, depression, pain, mood swings, and food cravings

    EAT a lot of these, T.
    Coconut meat
    Mustard seed
    Sweet potato
    Red and black date
    Caraway seed
    Red bean
    Sweet basil

    and... hehe!! I'll sign off with a few of my fav's-
    Vitamin E
    Uva ursi
    St. Johns wort

    Love, your
    ¸.·´¸.·*´¨) ¸.·*¨)
    (¸.·´ (¸.·´ *Annie

    4197 days ago
    Oh Tina, I am sorry:
    First of all that getting up at 4:30 thing has always been inspirational to me... the morning is not my time and I alway admire people who use that time so well. May be it's too much while your body is doing this thing?

    Why not call the Dr. and ask if they want you earlier?

    May be exercise at the park while Tony is practicing.

    Wanna come visit me and share my couch? A day or two of that might be just the thing.

    Hugs friend.
    Love ya,
    4197 days ago
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