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Where's my band wagon!?

Tuesday, April 28, 2009

I feel like I'm losing a little (ok a lot!) of my momentum, and I don't like it!

Last Thursday (April 23) was my 26th Birthday and although I know 26 isn't THAT old, I still cant help but feel like an old fart. I'm not totally sure why I feel like I'm losing my momentum, but I do know that I'm beating myself up about 'cheating' this past weekend, even if its not totally a cheat.

Last Thursday I worked in a piece of birthday cake from the mini bday party my office threw me. I hit all my nutritional goals and didn't go over or under, which I thought was good, but I still felt like I was 'cheating' or doing something wrong by having that piece of cake.

Saturday, for the first time since starting my weight loss journey, I went out to eat for lunch. I had a side salad, with cucumbers, salad, and balsamic vinaigrette dressing and then I had a turkey sammie with cheese, mayo, lettuce, and tomato on french bread. I right away put half of it in a box to take home and even though I was still hungry when I finished the salad and first half of the sammie, I didn't give in and eat the second half. I'm not sure if I was totally ready to go out to eat or not but I thought it would be a good test. I feel like I did ok, my only gripe is the place I went didn't have any nutritional information, so I had no idea what I was eating.

Later on Saturday, while shopping with my friend and her boyfriend, they got ice cream and Cinnabon and offered me some of both. I took a small bite of the ice cream but didn't give in and get anything of my own. I was proud of myself for that because the temptation was right there but I reasoned myself out of it and saved myself those calories.

Saturday night I had a bbq, with a few friends at my house, to celebrate my birthday and I thought I made some wise choices on what to serve. We had boneless/skinless chicken breasts - grilled, baked beans, pasta salad (which I didn't eat any of since I've cut out pasta - at least for now) carrots/broccoli, strawberries, oranges, and apples. I also had a few cocktails (which I know was a bad idea) but my cake was a strawberry shortcake and my friend made it low cal/low fat just for me. I didn't count my calories either Saturday nor Sunday so even though I think I didn't eat a lot, I really have no idea. I feel like I've fallen off the band wagon which is a little crazy seeing as how I actually lost a pound between Saturday and Sunday - when I wasn't counting my calories.

I still did my exercise all last week, although I felt like I wasn't as into it as I normally was. Friday night I did my cardio dvd really hard and felt awesome after and I even got up early Saturday morning (I had out of town friends staying with me) and did my cardio to make sure I got it in.

I don't know why I seem to be down in the dumps, I'm usually very positive and excited but so far this week I just can't get motivated or find my momentum. I'm back to counting my calories (although last night - Monday - I went over my calorie range, on purpose, and had a piece of strawberry shortcake on a whim, which was horrible! After I ate it I felt really bad and it totally off set everything!) Today I have stayed exactly to my plan and not cheated at all, I stayed within all my nutritional goals and did my normal workout but I'm still feeling sluggish - almost burnt out. I'm not sure what to do to get myself out of the dumps, I feel stuck!

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  • BILLALEX70
    Hey Cassie.

    It sounds like you've hit that wall. The wall that we all hit; hell I still hit it from time to time. You're at a point where you start to question why you're doing this and your body wants you to remember all the 'good times' you used to have with food.

    You have every right to enjoy your birthday without regret. You have to let last week go and focus on the future. YOU have two choices right now; forget everything you've worked for and go back to your old ways and get as big as a house or you can dust yourself off learn from it and move on.

    I wish that I would have started losing back when I was your age. I wasted 10 more years being fat and I can never get that back.

    Stay strong!
    4363 days ago
  • SHELTIELADY
    Mind games, Don't you hate them?

    I have one for you. I was at the gym last Friday doing circuit training. I was jogging around the track and talking to some friends every time I passed them. On lap 5 I wasn't breathing hard or even breaking a sweat and one of those friends said "Look at you! I remember when when I met you and now here you are jogging. Who would have thought a 63 year old could come as far as you have." High praise but not the way my mind used it. I suddenly remembered that I am 63 not 23 and since that day even 1 lap has been a real chore.

    I think we just scare ourselves sometimes. When it becomes easy for us to do we think something is wrong or it is just a fluke and we won't be able to keep doing it. I hope that the way to push past our doubts is to just keep doing what we are doing and kick that old devil doubt in the teeth.

    You know that you did great. You know that you can have a small piece of cake and survive. We all know it too. Even your scale knows it. LOL So your doubt says "hey you, this is to easy it can't work".

    Well. I'm here to tell you that you can do it as a matter of fact you are doing it!
    4364 days ago
  • MRSCAROLB2
    To me it sounds as if you are not eatting things that will fill you up and stay with you. Sure it was your b-day and you should enjoy your day and not worry about counting calories. I would try to put more fiber and protien in your diet. By adding fiber you will stay fuller longer. We sometimes get depressed because we fill like we are hungry all the time and that is why it is better to feel full. By getting your protien will give you the energy to work out and not feel so drained. I know you can do this, you just have to find something that works for you and take those baby steps. It take a while to learn all of this and it will come in time. So don't give up you are doing so good and I love the will power you have.

    Here is an article on fiber that you may be interested in reading
    http://www.sparkpeople.c
    om/resource/nutrition_articles.
    asp?id=442

    Carolyn
    4364 days ago

    Comment edited on: 4/29/2009 7:34:50 AM
  • MSTELZER
    Hey it sound to me like you are selling yourself short here! You are doing great but your self doubt is showing and that means its time to take a good look at yourself and see what you can do to make a few more changes. Seriously you are doing good! You feel like you are loosing your motivation - ok. Try to remember the reasons you started this journey, make a list of things you want to see change, find some quotes that just make you tingle with the knowledge you can do it - these are all ways to work on staying motivated. You just have to find what works for you!

    Hang in there!

    Michelle
    4364 days ago
  • STRAWBERRIEZ1
    sounds like you have great motivation and that is really great but it sounds like you are starving and your not eating the right things and hungry hurts and it is really frustrating which causes you to lose motivation but dont worry YOU CAN DO IT!!!! dont starve yourself because it dose more harm then good eat pasta but eat whole grain pasta and the right amount look at my pasta salas recipe its only 100 calories a serving its on my page it should help and dont feel bad when you indulge once and a while its ok use it as an award when you reach your goals like if you walk every day for a week on friday go get a scoop of ice cream if i reach my goal at the end of the day i have a can of pepsi its so great its motivating hehehehe emoticon heres something i eat in a day and im full all day


    breakfast
    quaker oatmeal (maple brown suger one pack)
    medium/large banana
    glass of milk

    snack
    yogurt or fiberone plus antioxidant bar (fiber bars are so so yummie if u like chocolate)

    lunch
    4 egg whites with tomatoes,onions,peppers,american cheese

    another snack woohoo

    dinner
    hamburger with cheese (no bun)
    pasta salad

    something like this im full all day it works for me you can try it and see if have questions im always here
    4364 days ago
  • S_HANSEN
    Well, I do not think you have fallen off the band wagon based on your tale of this weekend... you made conscious decisions on food, you exercised most of the weekend too. It was your birthday, and it could of been so much worse. I don't think you are giving yourself enough credit... you are doing great. I don't know what is going on with you this week, but I know that you have it in you to be a success... You can do this, You deserve this, and i know you want this.. Maybe you are just tired from the weekend... have you considered that? take a rest, but watch your calories, and then see what happens, if you get your mojo back... Hang in there and know that I am sending positive thoughts your way.... emoticon Sondra
    4364 days ago

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