I feel like I'm losing a little (ok a lot!) of my momentum, and I don't like it!
Last Thursday (April 23) was my 26th Birthday and although I know 26 isn't THAT old, I still cant help but feel like an old fart. I'm not totally sure why I feel like I'm losing my momentum, but I do know that I'm beating myself up about 'cheating' this past weekend, even if its not totally a cheat.
Last Thursday I worked in a piece of birthday cake from the mini bday party my office threw me. I hit all my nutritional goals and didn't go over or under, which I thought was good, but I still felt like I was 'cheating' or doing something wrong by having that piece of cake.
Saturday, for the first time since starting my weight loss journey, I went out to eat for lunch. I had a side salad, with cucumbers, salad, and balsamic vinaigrette dressing and then I had a turkey sammie with cheese, mayo, lettuce, and tomato on french bread. I right away put half of it in a box to take home and even though I was still hungry when I finished the salad and first half of the sammie, I didn't give in and eat the second half. I'm not sure if I was totally ready to go out to eat or not but I thought it would be a good test. I feel like I did ok, my only gripe is the place I went didn't have any nutritional information, so I had no idea what I was eating.
Later on Saturday, while shopping with my friend and her boyfriend, they got ice cream and Cinnabon and offered me some of both. I took a small bite of the ice cream but didn't give in and get anything of my own. I was proud of myself for that because the temptation was right there but I reasoned myself out of it and saved myself those calories.
Saturday night I had a bbq, with a few friends at my house, to celebrate my birthday and I thought I made some wise choices on what to serve. We had boneless/skinless chicken breasts - grilled, baked beans, pasta salad (which I didn't eat any of since I've cut out pasta - at least for now) carrots/broccoli, strawberries, oranges, and apples. I also had a few cocktails (which I know was a bad idea) but my cake was a strawberry shortcake and my friend made it low cal/low fat just for me. I didn't count my calories either Saturday nor Sunday so even though I think I didn't eat a lot, I really have no idea. I feel like I've fallen off the band wagon which is a little crazy seeing as how I actually lost a pound between Saturday and Sunday - when I wasn't counting my calories.
I still did my exercise all last week, although I felt like I wasn't as into it as I normally was. Friday night I did my cardio dvd really hard and felt awesome after and I even got up early Saturday morning (I had out of town friends staying with me) and did my cardio to make sure I got it in.
I don't know why I seem to be down in the dumps, I'm usually very positive and excited but so far this week I just can't get motivated or find my momentum. I'm back to counting my calories (although last night - Monday - I went over my calorie range, on purpose, and had a piece of strawberry shortcake on a whim, which was horrible! After I ate it I felt really bad and it totally off set everything!) Today I have stayed exactly to my plan and not cheated at all, I stayed within all my nutritional goals and did my normal workout but I'm still feeling sluggish - almost burnt out. I'm not sure what to do to get myself out of the dumps, I feel stuck!