Balancing It All
Thursday, August 07, 2008
Back in May, I went to the doctor for my annual physical. One thing was different this May from any other annual physical I'd ever had: my blood pressure, though not technically medication high, was higher than it's ever been and on the verge of medication high. As we discussed my frustration with trying to lose weight/get healthy, we kept coming back to the thing that I ALWAYS kept coming back to: there aren't enough hours in the day for me to get my exercise in. I have believed for a long time now that for me, the key is to get the exercise going, because not only is that good for me in and of itself, but also, it helps to focus me on the eating part of the equation: if I'm going to the gym and working my butt off, I am much more likely to pay attention to what is going into my mouth. But as I looked at my schedule, getting to the gym during the week is simply tough. Not an excuse not to exercise, the reality of my life. And that is not a complaint and I am not whining, it is a statement of fact and I am fine with it.
I am not and never have been one of those people who hate exercise, I love it, in fact. But, for all my love for it, it's hard to make room for it in my busy life. And, as the old saying goes, so often life just gets in the way of all our best intentions. But something was definitely different this time: bad health was knocking on my doorstep. Suddenly, it hit me like a ton of bricks: getting to the gym wasn't a luxury I was affording myself, it was as necesaary as getting up in the morning and brushing my teeeth. Of course, my doctor has been telling me that for years, and I thought I knew what she was saying, but I never understood it like I did right then.
So now, I have a schedule in place to get to the gym Saturday and Sunday (pretty easy) and two weekdays (pretty difficult). I do my very, very best to make that schedule stick, but make no mistake, the stress in that schedule remains.. On the days I simply can't, because in fact, life sometimes does continue to get in the way, I figure out another way to make this not so svelte body move, move, move.. I do not/cannot/will not let the roadblocks of life deter me from my Journey to Health, which is what this is all about. And I was right about the fact that being on the exercise bandwagon does give me focus on the food aspect of things... I do in fact pay more attention to what I am putting in my mouth, I have modified my nighttime activities to keep myself away from the evening grazing that was happening. I am feeling good about me, but I am not going overboard with it. I do not/will not/should not obsess over all this. I don't spend all my time talking about this. I have a long, long way to go, but this is today and today, I'm doing okay. I will worry about tomorrow tomorrow. Yesterday is gone and out of my hands. Today, I can do my very best at all this and still I will be able to live all the other aspects of my life: my son's mom, my husband's wife, my employer's worker, my friends' friend, my mother's daughter, etc. I like the me all this adds up to. There's plenty to work on, and I believe there always will be, but I think that's okay, too. And I will never, ever, take my progress for granted.
And today, I get to use my new iPod at the gym for the first time!!