Two of Clubs
Thursday, May 22, 2008
Even the way you talk to yourself can be hurtful. Instead of saying "I can't," replace it with "I wish." Swap "I'm a failure" with "I didn't succeed this time." Not my thought, i don't know hwo wrote it: but it makes sense.
Well, I checked out the nicer Y a few miles longer away from my home, and it took three times past the site and a few phone calls to figure out where they are. Past a certain road, then look where the white picket fence is, and then turn left. Ok, the sign was beat up and didn't reflect that there was a lane, more like a drive way back to a multimillion dollar facility with swimming hours all day long in an area where I can comfortably be in til 10 pm. I'm not so sure about the curvy road to get there. That will be a challenge.
Food~~ok, got to get focused.
Tomorrow, Sunday, planning ahead for what I'm eating....that's the secret. Yet, eating out and not having to think ahead is a whole lot easier. Back and focus!
Sunday.....a real reflective Sunday, in that I can't change other people.....only myself, and it's a whole lot easier to focus on other's faults rather than my own....... Another thought....yesterday, someone gave some sarcastic remarks to me which were very close to kidding, while I was in the swimming pool.. I didn't even try to comment, just laughted and went on.....it was also the time that I had decided to leave early, so I did. It's always hard for me to leave early from someeplace, but I did. I guess she felt a bit guilty, cause she caught up with me and asked if anything was wrong. I said no, honestly, and said that I had made plans to leave early.....I was able to walk away from a bad scene......I didn't take it....really it happened more by accident, but I got the feeling that it is ok to leave a bad scene.
I joined the 150-ville yesterday as well, and seeing those numbers here at Sparks, I really felt a bit overwhelmed att seeing the numbers, another whole door has opened.
Sunday evening.........I have an 8am job fair.......this was an off day of eating.......should I list the stuff? Actually I stopped before I got to the bottom of the chips and the cheese puffs......
At work, I put my bad attitude on display...
Monday~~joined a job club, went to a job fair, left and ate fast food, was hungry. Went back to the job fair, and have two contacts to make. Listened to a speaker. Slept, now to work. Still didn't get the good groceries.
Monday evening~~looking forward to getting back and eating right.....
Life handed me a WHAMMIE
Well, there is nothing I can do about it this evening....will sleep on it and figure out what I can do about it tomorrow.
Decided that I had to break it down and if I didn't have time for a while to buy a weeks worth of groceries, then I had time to buy a day's worth......same thing happened with the whammie.
Well, I went swimming in the nicer Y and the pool is wider. It also might be longer, in that, I swam and I am tireder.
Tonight I bought a pint of ice cream and ate it. That is probably a result of the whammie. I don't know how to face it and not be afraid.