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5/6/08 getting organized, finding my "routine"?

Tuesday, May 06, 2008

Last weigh in on Sunday found me -6 pounds down and I can see the water weight is going away. I can put my feet down now without pain!

Saw the GYN today, all the biopsies were negative, no cancer. I'm healing well and can go another year till I see her again! I'm three weeks post surgery, three weeks post resting, and I'm allowed to go back to my "normal" routine. emoticon

OK, what exactly is that? My normal routine? I've been losing the same 10-15 pounds for the past 6 months. My normal routine starts on Sunday and It's Tuesday, and I feel out of sorts. I feel overwhelmed and don't know exactly where to start or what to do. I feel like a "NEWBIE" again and wonder how I made it down this road in the first place. Do I want to do it again? Do I really want to start over? Why am I even questioning all this? I always say "I will never ever give up" but.....

emoticonLynn, get it together, you can do this. You can do this with all your SPARKFRIENDS! emoticonSnap out of it!

I'm taking the rest of the week to get organized. I'm going to flounder a bit with exercise and I have been staying on track, so I'm really half way there right?

emoticonYes, it's still me. Yes, I can do this, I will never ever give up!

emoticonI'm back!

Thanks for another great week!
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    Hi Lynn...so very happy that your test results were negative and that there was no cancer. What a happy message that was. Congratulations on the six-pound loss. It sounds to me like you might be going through a bit of depression which often happens after surgery. Take the time you need to reorganize and even flounder a bit if you want, but just don't quit! All of us slip and slide, gain and lose, but the important thing is to keep looking ahead and not giving up. We're all in your corner rooting for you as you are rooting for us... emoticon go, Lynn, go!

    4723 days ago
    Stopped by to see how you were doing - (((HUGS))) - wow - you have been thru a lot, but I am SO glad to see you are doing well and getting better!!!

    As for that "Newbie" feeling - - - I am actually going back to the beginning and accepting my newbie feeling, lol! Maybe it will show where I went wrong these past 2-3 months!!

    Best to you!
    4724 days ago
    Lynn, get those boxing gloves on you can beat this.
    4725 days ago
    you know you can do it, you've done it before! You might have seen this email from sparkpeople, but I thought it was worth sharing with you even if you have....

    Persistence. Persistence. Persistence.

    We keep hearing about how persistence is often the key to success. But what do you do when you've been striving for so long that it seems like your goal is never going to see light? How do you deal with the fear that you're about to fail? Simple. Give it just one more shot. And then one more. Think about the sweat and time you've committed already. You've come this far, you'd be unfair to yourself if you quit without a fight. Even if the odds are way out of your favor and you can't see how it can possibly help, reach out and take one last swing. You never know what will happen. Big, meaningful achievements don't just happen when everything goes your way. How many times have you seen tennis players make miraculous winning shots while lunging for a ball that seemed impossible to reach? Sometimes, you can find victory in the effort.

    We can find victory in the effort an dyou can just do it again... Keep on going Lynn! Here WE go! ~~ Kathy

    4726 days ago
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    Ah Lynn sometimes I feel like you and I are clones on opposite sides of the world. Your feelings are my feelings. We've even yo yoed those same 10 - 15 pounds. We're still around the same weight even though many moons ago we both fell below that magic 200 mark. Your surgery has thrown you just as my sister's illness threw me. The routine, the passion, the determination all left to deal with something else on our plate, but you will come back and that's why you're still here. Apart from the great friendships that we have in each other...I mean look at how many people responded to your blog...they don't have to do that...they do it because they care for you just as you care for them. That routine will develop. I'm forcing my routine and sometimes it doesn't work but go back to tracking food and exercise. It will be back and losing that 6 pounds last week has to give you motivation to keep going. Stay positive Lynn. You keep telling me WE'RE in this for the long haul. Hugs, my friend because you need them. Joan
    4726 days ago
    Take it slow. You're just coming out of recovery. Perhaps this week you could start with short slow walks, and then depending on how you feel pick up the pace a bit next week.
    4726 days ago
    Just another example of how you inspire so many on Spark. Congratulations on the biopsy results -- I had no idea you were going through all of this, but I'm so happy and grateful that you're on your way back to feeling better and stronger. I know you'll get where you want to be! Lea
    4727 days ago
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    You are not allowed to quit. It says so in the contract you signed when you joined this circus!!!

    You are stuck with all of us as we are stuck with you! We'll take you in any shape you are!

    You'll find your routine again. It will just take a little time. And who knows? It may be better than ever!

    Hugs! Beverly
    4727 days ago
    So glad you get to go back to your normal routine. Very happy that no cancer was found. You and me both need to learn to move forward. No more relosing the same pounds we are going to lose new pounds. We can do it
    4727 days ago
    emoticon Lynn,woohoo about the test results! That's wonderful hun!!
    Just get back into the swing of things slowly then but next week you will be right with everyone again!! You can do this!!!
    Many hugs coming your way g/f!! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

    4727 days ago
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    Congrats on getting rid of 6 pounds! emoticon

    I've been on that roller coaster too. Doing well and having it be almost too easy, then struggling and wondering if I have the strength of will to keep going. We've come too far and we'll keep on going. Sometimes all we need to do is stop thinking about it so much. Relax and tune inside.

    You have a lot of support. We'll all do this together! emoticon

    4727 days ago
    Lynn, I'm so glad the biopsies came back negative! emoticon That can be so nerve-racking, the waiting for results.

    We will get organized 2gether. I'm feeling EXACTLY the same way. B/c of being so busy the last couple of wks, then my 2&1/2 day cold (knock on wood), I just can NOT decide what exercises to do 2day. I want to do them all! I'm containing myself to do an ab workout, my arm weights, then a nice, brisk walk in the hills. That will catch me up for the wk.

    All I can say, is if U had set exercises on set days, just start with Tues & continue on with your wk. If U didn't, start easy with some simple arm weights 2day & maybe a little walk.

    IT'S GOING TO HAPPEN THIS CHALLENGE! We will knock socks off this time.

    4727 days ago
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