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I want to be this happy all the time!

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So this literally was my favorite picture for a long, long time. I didn't want ANYONE looking at me, especially with a camera. I use to say I wanted to be wallpaper so I could blend in to my surroundings. Ment every word of it too. One goal is to change this attitude and to be comfortable in my own skin. I don't want to hide anymore.

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For the last year depression has defined me. I have been in a downward spiral for too long. No More! New motto is Carpe Diem! Every day is a new day and a chance to start fresh. I'm throwing out negativity, bad attitudes, lost love, depression, anxiety, passiveness, and trading my sorrows for the JOY of the LORD!!

That doesn't mean I'm not done working on my inner and outer self, this is just the beginning!

Member Since: 11/10/2009

Fitness Minutes: 2,457

My Goals:
These are my long term goals. I think about this a lot. This is a constant battle in my life...

I'm doing this for ME!!! I could not say that last year.

2. I don't want to have the weight problems I see my parents have when I am their age.
3. I want to motivate my family, we all are overweight. I want my family around for years to come.
4. I am tired of always being the D.U.F.F.
5. I want to be able to get off my depression and anxiety medications.To do that I need to be able to have a better over all self image.This is something I have control over, though to change it I have a long road ahead of me. Physically, mentally, emotionally,spiritually

My Program:
Make good, healthy eating choices that lead to good eating habits, which will result in better lifestyle choices.

To exercise 5 days a week.
No caffeine or soda

Eat gluten free.

To be able to walk the hills around my house without getting winded. To be able to keep up with my freshmen girls when they are walking

Personal Information:
I'm a misplaced Texan from Florida who found her way home again, only to miss the beach. Manifest Destiny has happened: I live in the Pacific Northwest now. I love my family and my friends, and I love hanging out with people.

I am a UT-Dallas Alumni
with a degree in Speech-Language Pathology and Audiology

Other Information: it cut off my goals.
6. To not be scared of mirrors, cameras, or men looking at me.
7. To be able to accept a compliment and believe it.
8. To know I am beautiful... on the outside.
9. To have a romantic relationship
10. To get married.
11. To value myself, and let the love of Christ shine in me

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    Stopping in to check on you. I hope that even if you're not actively participating at SP that you're taking care of yourself and moving closer to your goals. You are WORTH it!

    Just wanted you to know you're not forgotten!
    3613 days ago
    Just stopped by to say emoticon emoticon ! I hope all is well with you and wanted to wish you a Sparked day!!

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    4147 days ago
    Hey! Hope you are feeling better!! emoticon
    4153 days ago
    Thanks! I think you should do it. It's really easy to follow and you can go at your own pace. The plan that I am following is here:

    I am definitely not a runner by any means and I am pushing through it. As you know I finished week 1 yesterday. I did the first day of week 2 tonight and it was a bit harder, but I made it through. I was huffing and puffing by the time I was done. I did have some foot pain through the first week, but I'm pretty sure it was because of the shoes I was wearing. I went to a New Balance store and got fitted for some shoes. I did my first workout in them tonight and finished with no foot pain. So, I would definitely recommend some good shoes. Let me know how it goes for you!
    4176 days ago
    That would be awesome, let me know if you guys go do some interesting things around town, and I'll keep you posted too. The indoor rock climbing place sounds cool! emoticon
    4183 days ago
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