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Here I go yet again...and again....and again. I have lost this weight before. I have gained it all back. Plus more, each and every time. I have reached the point where it's my health more than my appearance I worry about, but that doesn't mean I don't want to look good.

I am 50, I have 3 wonderful boys. Ages 30, 23, and 22 . I have been blessed with three adorable grandsons, and a granddaughter. I don't want to be hiding from the camera anymore. I want to be in those pictures, and not sickened by what I see.

I have "disappeared" from family photos. What memories am I leaving behind? Memories of a Mom and Grandma that hides from the camera? Things have to change. They will change. I don't like what I see in the mirror, but at least now, I can begin to move forward. I know I am doing something positive for me. This is for my health. It's for my life. Looking good will be a wonderful BONUS, but not the most important part.

This is my fourth go round at SparkPeople. The site works, it's fantastic. I'm the one who didn't follow through. My SparkFriends have always been here for me, no matter what. They have continually reached out to me, even when I wasn't active on SP. I am one of the many who have been blessed because SparkPeople exists. There is no amount of money that can buy the support system available from this caring, giving, community. This totally FREE site offers all of the support anyone needs, plus such a wide array of tools and learning opportunities. It is truly amazing!!! It is here just for the taking!!! You better believe, I'm taking it!!!

I am going to do my best to hang on this time, no matter what roads life may take me down. This time I KNOW I will succeed. My plan is to not only learn how to eat healthy, but to put it into practice, and keep it there. No more "dieting" for me. Healthy eating, healthy lifestyle. Exercise will become a permanent change, not a temporary fix. I plan on using the fitness plan that SparkPeople so generously provides, and I will stick to it this time.

I have to make these changes if I want to live my life. As it is, I haven't really been living for a long time. I have been so down and discouraged. What kind of life is it when you don't want to go anywhere? When you are embarrassed instead of happy when you run into an old friend? When you never want to be in the family photos? When you KNOW everyone is staring at you in the checkout line at the grocery, and it's not your imagination? That is no kind of life at all.

All of that is changing. I feel good knowing I am making the right decisions for my health. It is rubbing off on my husband whether he likes it or not. I will not set myself up for failure by cooking unhealthy meals all the time. Yes, he can still have his favorites. So can I. Just not every day. There is room in a healthy diet and lifestyle for the occasional splurge. Occasional being the key

Member Since: 3/4/2006

Fitness Minutes: 3,955

My Goals:
Lose weight, get healthy, make friends!!!

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I'm a 50 year old homemaker. I'm lucky to live with the love of my life. I'm a true Gemini, there are definitely two distinctly different versions of me!!!

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I'm a perfectionist, and it drives my family crazy!!!

"I'm selfish, impatient, and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control, and at times hard to handle, but if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best." Marilyn Monroe

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    My name is Jane and I stumbled upon your Spark page through one of my/our teams and wanted to add you as a friend. Your background is so cute!
    Please feel free to add me as a friend as well.
    Having Spark friends has made this journey so much easier.
    Take care and best of luck on your healthy journey!

    Jane emoticon
    3215 days ago
  • v MIMI2251
    Hi Mary!! I just wanted to thank you for leaving comments on all my blogs. You are an amazing person and its really great to have you to help push me through.
    ~Mariah emoticon
    3222 days ago
    thanks so much for stopping by my blog :-) I appreciate the kind words!
    3223 days ago
    Mary, I just read your SP page. You are a wonderful person, beautiful inside and out. I am so glad to of found you here on SP all those years ago emoticon . Keep up the good work girl, you are motivating me to get myself in gear.
    Love Jayne. emoticon
    3224 days ago
  • v NIXY72
    Thank you so much for your wonderful comments on my latest blog "Making Progress". I'm glad it has touched so many people and been an inspiration :) Your comments & support mean the world to me. Thanks again so much!
    3228 days ago
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