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Ok.......I am trying to come back.............again. The past few years have been horrible for my personal and financial life. I had two neck surgeries in 3 months and since then been on a downhill slide. I need so much support and am not getting it at home. I am scared to exercise or too depressed to, or....just too lazy. I have pain most days so it is really hard to get going. I just can't let myself gain anymore weight.

I know what I have to do to lose weight. I know I can't keep putting it off for tomorrow, or next week, or next month. Why can't I JUST DO IT?!

Member Since: 6/28/2006

Fitness Minutes: 2,888

My Goals:
I would like to learn to make healthy choices for a healthy lifestyle without having to obsess about it. I would love to reach my goal of 120 lbs, but I realize the number on the scale isn't as important as my fitness level and the way my body feels. I have pain almost all the time. I had two surgeries recently and since them there has been some improvement with pain, but not fixed. I know I need to get moving and exercising but I think I am scared or depressed or ...?

My ulitimate goal is to start living life...and not waiting to live "after" I lose the weight.

My Program:
WHAT PROGRAM? Booo! That's the problem. I am not doing anything anymore.

I know I have to:

Tracking/Journaling all of my food.

Drinking a ton of water.

Cardio: 30-60 mins/day x 5x/week.

Strength training: 15 mins/day x 2x/week.(Gotta get better about strength training)

Will start walking again once Spring hits! And will get back to Yoga once the Back Doc gives me the go ahead. He said NO YOGA, which is weird because I have always heard it is great for strength and flexibility in your core, which is what I need, but I will listen to him. I have numerous slipped/herniated discs in my back, and degenerative disc disease, so that's an obstacle I have to contend with. Oh well, we all have "something".

Something that has also helped me: Spreading light and positive thoughts, creating positivity in all that I come across, forgiving those who I should have forgiven years ago AND loving and forgiving myself.

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Anoka County, Minnesota
42 yrs old feeling 82 yrs old.

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    Hey sis How are you I just got back from family camp./ did good til they brought the smores out boy I love those things./ well tomorrow is a new week and a new day./ I am refocusing my plan and I wil l get down where i want to be./ i will and I am so proud of you jill keep up the hard work to get the journey to weight loss started./ Love your big sister
    5253 days ago
    hey what is up. Thank-you for letting me vent. I can see where I gained all my weight all the stress men gave me J/K . What is your name? Do you have a e-mail address or can I e-mail you at spark people. Please let me know and have a great day!!!
    5260 days ago
    Awwww, thanks! Today I went and bought some resistance bands, just to get things moving again, and drank about 60 ounces of Ugh...feel pretty wishy washy. Don't know what we are having for dinner though, and yeah I will start planning ahead better. I hate grocery at least the lists will help, I hope. Oh, do you have any exercises for those bands?
    5261 days ago
    Hey sis I love your page. And I am here every baBY STEP you take. That is how I got to where I am at and I started at a high weight of 249 so you see our starting weights are close . Just take one meal at a time but i do suggest you plan your meals a head that way if you just follow them it will be easier to stick to your plan. and your new eating plan will give you engery and you will see that weight melt off you. You are the greatest sister I could ask for I am so glad you are mine.
    5261 days ago
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