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Introduction Text "I did then what I knew how to do. Now that I know better, I do better"- Maya Angelou 2012 Update: The amazing, talented and wise, Maya Angelou spoke those words and I've decided to make them the theme for this year's leg of my journey towards total health and happiness. I'm looking forward to what this year brings!!! Updated: 8/30/2011 I'm midway through my second year here at Sparkpeople. Last year I had tremendous success; with over 10000 Fitness Minutes and a 60 pound weight loss...I was feeling like a freakin' Rockstar and was on top of the world...then *insert the sound of a toilet flushing* My depression reared it's ugly head. My medication stopped being effective, I had an injury that kept me away from the gym and before I knew it I had regained first 10...then 20...then 30...then 50 pounds...in like 5 months. I finally woke up and realized I needed to address my medication/depression/anxiety issue in June. I joined a new, local gym and started back to working out; nowhere near what I was doing last November/December in terms of time and intensity, but it's a start. Currently, I am in the second month of a drug tapering process and I will have my first therapy session on September 12th. And yet, in the midst of all this, somehow enough people here on spark people liked my blogs enough to name me a Motivator...CRAZY. Sometimes I feel like a colossal failure, in that I was not able to maintain my weight loss, or my healthy lifestyle momentum. But then I stop for a second and realize that I haven't failed, because I haven't given up. Changinig one's goals does not mean that they've given up. Instead, it shows that person is evolving, changing, growing...and that's what I'm here to do. Last year I basically ignored all the emotional baggage and feelings that accompany weight loss and profound change...Bad idea. This year I am learning that flaws and all; I CAN become more physically and mentally healthy. And really, isn't that a better goal than losing X Number of pounds?

I want to live a healthy, happy life, free of restrictions due to weight limits.

HAES= Health At Every Size -look it up

I've moved to Oak Park, IL, this past year to be closer to family/emotional support. I'm also in Recovery for Binge Eating Disorder.

I'm pretty open, so if there's something you want to know, just ask.

Add a Link "I did then what I knew how to do. Now that I know better, I do better." ~Maya Angelou
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